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Fajra_Merav | Date: Monday, 17 Jan 2011, 2:12 PM | Message # 1 |
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| "You're all alone with broken wings Your life hinges on your direction Look to the stars to medicate." The days seemed endless, and the nights felt like an eternity. It was as if time on Corulag had suspended in dusk. Seldom leaving her quarters, Fajra retreated in solitude. Occasionally, she would depart in the middle of the night, only to return the next morning with signs of substance abuse written in her gaze. The Commander's behavior and the appearance of Destab became a popular topic amongst the Legion. Whispers materialized into rumors, but only one thing remained clear. Something happened to their little Commander, and it's source left a trail pointing directly at Aethyr. She lay with her back pressed against the frozen earth, enshrouded by trees kissed by winters breath. The meadow was located outside the military compound, but far enough that she could be alone. It had been a few hours since she last took something, and already she could feel herself slipping. It was her birthday today. One spent quietly reflecting on the past and future. It was only when she was sober that she felt vulnerable, where memories of the past assaulted her. She wanted to spend the day differently, but was she strong enough? She could make the pain go away, the answer was within the palm of her hand. Just one pill...and everything would be okay. Or at least that's what she kept telling herself. The pill was now pressed against her lips, promising her a way out. But what was she waiting for? A package glistened against the moons beams, drawing her attention to the mysterious gift. "Where did you come from?" she asked out loud, as she shot it 'a look.' Forgetting about her nasty little friend, she tossed the pill away. Sitting up, she pulled the package into her lap. No matter where it came from, she was at least about to find out what was in it. Without anymore delay, she tore the wrapping off to find a beautiful wooden box. For Fajra to find a piece of wood 'beautiful,' that was saying a lot. The wood was carved with a desert rose, one that could be found on her homeworld of Soterios. Gingerly, she lifted the lid off and placed it on the ground. There was a piece of parchment on top of something wrapped in a white velvet material. Her amber eyes rested upon the parchment, where her name was elegantly written. She felt her heart skip a beat as she recognized the script instantly...it was her mothers. Hands shaking, she opened the letter to find the following: "Remember, always, my beloved....those in possession of abandoned dreams, will violently battle your own." Tears gleamed within her amber pools as she pulled back the cloth, revealing her mothers lightsaber hilt. The silver hilt was stunning, but nothing compared to the viridian crystal inside. Added (20 Dec 2010, 4:04 PM) --------------------------------------------- Normally, she could think of something clever to say. But this wasn't a normal situation, then again, there was nothing normal about Fajra. She had more issues than the Senate...combined. Mommy and daddy issues aside, the girl was exceptionally talented. Her disregard for the rules, and her devil-may-care attitude was just a cover. Looking past the invisible mask she adorned, followed by smoke and mirrors, one would find a young woman with the power to command more than just a Legion. She had an uncanny ability to lure her audience in, but it's full potential has yet to be seen. Her nose wrinkled up as she looked for the button. Fajra was a skilled saber rake, perhaps Tapani's best. A skill that would come in handy...if she knew how to activate the shiny thing in her hand. She never accepted the fact that she was force sensitive, not wanting the labels that came with it, but there was more to it than that. Fajra's mother was a Jedi, and a victim of the Jedi Purge, and Fajra didn't want to be just another statistic. For the most part, it was her little secret. But there were a few, like the Emperor, who knew better. As of recent, the force had become harder to ignore. In moments when her emotions were strong, she'd accidentally unleashed the force. And her visions...which first came to her as dreams, felt as real as the ground beneath her feet. "It's time to accept my destiny" she whispered. And then she let go. She let go of everything that had been building inside. Closing her eyes, she sucked in a sharp breath, slowly releasing it as she imagined the force escaping her body. The feeling was incredible, better than an adrenaline rush. Her eyes snapped open in the same moment the viridian blade hummed to life. Added (24 Dec 2010, 11:17 Am) --------------------------------------------- It hit her again, as if she'd been taken out of her body. And part of her had been, because she could feel everything. In this memory, she was no more than eighteen, standing before her father. They were arguing again, her words felt angry as they left her lips. "I'm doing my best," she shouted over her fathers words, as if saying them louder would make him understand. "Your best just isn't good enough!" he finally snapped, rising from his chair. She flinched as his eyes met hers, finding only disappointment written in his gaze. Not thinking, she wanted to hurt him, she wanted him to feel something...anything. "It would have been good enough for mom" her words sounded too dangerous to have come from her own lips. She didn't feel like herself, she felt detached, cruel even. He didn't hesitate, and she didn't stop him, even though they both know she could have. He backhanded her, hard, nearly knocking her over. "Your mother" he said flatly, straightening up as he chose his next words carefully. "Is not coming back. Why would she? So you can disappoint her as you have me? ... Fajra ..." he continued to say, but it was too late, she was already gone. "One day the Emperor will call upon you, and I hope you will be ready," he whispered, his anger replaced by something else. Sadness. Hopelessness. Fear. Added (26 Dec 2010, 9:02 Am) --------------------------------------------- I was pulled into another memory. Adarian stood with his arm around a frail girl about my age. She was pretty, with straight blond hair and porcelain skin. A few guys had honed in on her and stood with Adarian, laughing and touching her. "She's already had too much tonight," I said, observing her coloring and look of confusion. They were taking turns with her and making gross suggestions. High and oblivious, she let them. "They can't do that," Aimee told me. "Nobody's going to stop them," I responded, my voice detached as I looked away. "Will you?" she asked, drawing my amber eyes to look at her. I'd always been the aggressive one, and seeing her looking at me to fix things, was more than I could stand. I gave her a shaky nod as I stumbled over to the group. "You so desperate to get some that you've got to drug girls, Adarian?" I put my hands on my hips and hoped I looked fierce. The truth was, I was feeling nauseous from all I'd drunk. "This isn't any of your business," he hissed. "Nobody wants to see this." "Yeah," agreed a senior girl, and a few of her friends chimed in. "Fine. None of you have to see it." He grabbed the girl's arm and jerked her away. Clumsily, she stumbled along with him out of the room. Aimee stared at me, shocked. "He's just going to take her to his room. He'll do even worse things to her." "Aim, I don't like it either, but it's not like I can go chase him down or anything. I could go punch him, but I feel like I'm going to throw up." I sat down, feeling bad about what happened. I didn't want to see the girl taken advantage of - it reminded me too much of what Aethyr did to me. Tapani nobles thought they could do whatever they wanted, and for the most part, they did what they wanted. Stepping out into the hallway, I breathed a sigh of relief at escaping the loud music. I couldn't allow what happened to me, to happen to her. I was going to end it. The door was ajar, and I pushed my way inside. Adarian was on top of her, and that was when I felt it snap inside of me. Adarian turned his head to look at me, and that's all I needed. I stood with my arms crossed, face angry and terrible. I stared at him intently, and he stared back, enchanted. He moved away from the girl and grabbed a chair. "Break the window," I said smoothly. "Come on. It doesn't matter." Hypnotized, he walked over to the large, tinted window. He pulled back and slammed the chair into the glass. It shattered, sending shards everywhere. "Fajra! Stop it. Make him stop." I heard Aimee's voice from the doorway, but I wasn't listening. "He should have stopped earlier." Aimee didn't recognize the look on my face. She knew I was seconds away from having him turn the chair on himself. "Please, Fajra." Through the fuzzy, alcoholic buzz, I felt a trickle of my emotions. Black. Angry. Merciless. I barely knew myself. And I was afraid. "Please, Fajra," she repeated. "He's not worth it. Let him go." I didn't look at her. My stormy eyes were focused on him. Slowly, carefully, he lifted up the chair, tilting it so that it lined up with his own skull. "Fajra, don't do it," she begged. "He should have stopped," I said evenly. "He shouldn't of done that to her. People can't treat people like that." "But your scaring her. Look at her!" My gaze flicked toward the girl, who sat huddled in the corner, her arms wrapped around herself protectively. My face stayed impassive, inside, I could feel the battle I was waging for control. Despite the blinding anger that filled me, I didn't want to hurt him. Squeezing my eyes shut, I let go of my hold on him. He dropped the chair, suddenly looking confused. In the hallway, footsteps sounded. The door was left open, and the crash had attracted attention. A couple of dorm staff members burst into the room, freezing when they saw the mess. "What happened?" The rest of us looked at each other. Adarian looked completely lost. He stared at the room, at the chair, then turned to me, his expression suddenly grew angry "It was you!" Added (26 Dec 2010, 10:17 Am) --------------------------------------------- "Fajra...Fajra..." My mothers silhouette was framed against the snowy backdrop; she was standing before me, the light from the viridian blade lit up her green eyes. "You're late," she told me. "Been waiting awhile." I shook my head, not understanding what I was seeing. "You left me," I sad firmly. My mother's expression dropped, replaced by sadness. "I would have come sooner, had you used the force. But I told you not to...I should have known," Her face darkened, her eyes grew hard. "Known what?" I pressed, but she didn't answer me. After a moment, she turned away from me. "Please don't go" I said softly, hoping I wouldn't lose her, not again. "I can't stay, I'm sorry Fajra. But before I go, answer me this; What do you fight for?" For a moment, I could barely breathe as I recalled the rush of pleasure dueling had given me. "Glory" I said without hesitation. "Is there no purpose...beyond the blood?" I didn't have an answer, and that's when everything faded to black. Added (17 Jan 2011, 3:12 PM) --------------------------------------------- When I finally woke, I was in my quarters. A sigh of relief escape my lips as I realized I was just dreaming. Cool. Then some coherent part of me immediately realized what was happening—and boy, was it pissed off. Just to make sure I wasn’t seeing things, I rubbed my eyes until I was sure I had smudged my makeup. I wasn’t seeing things. Errr…I take that back, I was seeing ghosts, to be more specific my mother. But I didn’t want to think about that right now, not when I had that thing on my night stand. I should probably be excited that I was now in the possession of a lightsaber. The excitement would probably come in time, I just needed to get over the shock factor. Like, how did it get here? And how did I get here? Last time I checked, I was reliving memory lane in the middle of a snow storm. No matter, I needed to stop moping around. It wasn’t that I was avoiding Destabilization. I just didn’t know how to deal with Aethyr. He turned my world upside down. I miss the girl who’s heart was once full and unbroken. As much as I want closure from him, he’s incapable of giving it. I just need to accept that he never truly loved me. Besides, who had time for love? I had a legion to command. Once I freed my body from the mountain of blankets, I hurried toward the door, hoping I hadn’t missed dinner. Before leaving, I took a quick glance at the mirror. Honestly, would it have killed me to pick up a brush before I left? Hastily, I ran a hand through my long hair, knowing it was a little too late. It probably looked like an animal had died on top of my head.
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General_Adenn | Date: Wednesday, 26 Jan 2011, 11:26 AM | Message # 2 |
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| Some could have argued that the length of time Aethyr had kept Fajra and the portion of the 13th Legion she was currently in control of on this planet was little more than one of his numerous mind games. A show of his dominance, a show that despite the cold words they had shared on his first night of arrival he was unphased and largely unchanged from the man he had been even back then. "Sir, Captain Jai'galaar has reported heavy losses. Their orbital support has been routed from the system, his forces are greatly out manned and surrounded." Aethyr was informed. "I see, " the agent responded absent mindedly, brushing a clot of dust from the top of his obsessively tidy desk with the pad of his middle finger. "But, is that not what those of your. . kind. . . were made for?" His retort came moments later with those calm, green eyes focusing in on the same face he'd been staring it for the better part of a month now. "To fight, and ultimately die for this Empire that was kind enough to grant you life?" "Sir, with all du--" Ne'tra sharply was cut off before the words breathed life through his lips. "Do not speak! You inform Captain Jai'galaar that he is to hold the Communications Array at ALL costs." "Perhaps this should be brought to Commander Merav's attention, Sir." "Are you questioning my authority, -clone-?" Aethyr growled lowly, his body slowly rising from the chair he had been sat upon. "Absolutely not, Agent Dakkari." Ne'tra replied coolly, unwavering at the entry of two Onyx Fist soldiers. "Commander Merav is rightfully in charge of this Unit though. And. ." "I have taken over command of this unit, and until I see fit it is in my authority to control it for as long as I feel needed." Aethyr hastily interjected, there was not much that could unsettle his frighteningly calm demeanor. But insubordination from a Clone was one thing that would indeed send his highly racist sensibilities in to an uproar. "I suggest you make haste from my Office now, while I summon Commander Merav."
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Fajra_Merav | Date: Sunday, 30 Jan 2011, 12:01 PM | Message # 3 |
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| Commander Merav: "That won't be necessary Colonel Dakkari." Fajra's singsongy voice echoed down the hall, as did her heavy footfalls. It was bad enough she never tied her boots, but her stomping could alert the enemy from a galaxy away. Finally she poked her pretty face through the doorway, her amber eyes narrowing as she took in Aethyr's presence. She smiled, but it wasn't that same infectious smile she often adorned. It was still dazzling, but there something almost cruel about it. Without taking her eyes off Aethyr, she directed her attention to Ne'tra. "See to the men. I want them ready for anything when I return..." Aethyr: The Legion's reputation for insubordination is well deserved, I suppose, Commander. [Aethyr breathed with utter disregard. His thoughts rapidly collecting themselves once again, although he was quite disappointed he let such a creature as this Clone dig itself so deeply in to the flesh. It was unbefitting of a Destab agent such as himself to allow such things.] If they were not such effective machines of warfare I'd see to it this entire Legion. . . and their General were decommissioned. . . if you understand what I'm saying. [He continued, curving slowly around his desk with sturdy, confident strides. His eyes never focusing on Fajra. Funny how he could speak to her as if nothing had ever happened.] To business though! [His words became almost enthusiastic.] I grow tired of this game with you, of this world. Of these. . clones. My job in this Empire, although not affording me the public admiration that you so thrive on and yearn for, is of an essential role in maintaining this complicated mechanism that keeps this gear turning. [He paused for a moment, taking in the pristine neatness of his office.] And as such, sometimes I am required to perform duties that, well, we'll say are better left out of the publics watchful eye. Do you understand? Commander Merav "The Legion..." she started to say as her body joined her head inside. There was a time when she would have spent hours in the refresher, getting dressed up for this man. Now, she stood in his office looking like a hot mess. She was pretty sure her hair was one big dreadlock. And the best part about it, she didn't care. She thought that seeing him would only bring her pain, that was why she had gone out of her way to avoid him. But now? She felt good. Really good. So much that laughter escaped her lips, lifting the malice within her amber eyes. But as soon as her laughter departed, that malice returned once more. The way he talked about the 13th, it sparked something inside of her. The anger she felt was almost as black as if he had personally caused her arm. "Don't speak of the 13th" she warned, it wasn't a threat, just a simple back off. "And...I understand perfectly well. That's why your here isn't it? Because you know above all else, that my loyalty to the Empire is not much different from your own." Aethyr [Responding with his own laughter, he came to stand directly in front of the girl whose innocence he had stolen and maimed so many years ago. One of the first acts of sickening defilement in a career that thrived on such monstrous behavior.] My Fajra, [It was the first time he'd responded to her by her name since he'd arrived.] You act as if you're actually a soldier, a comrade of these creatures. [He continued, brow perked curiously.] Surely you realize you are not. You understand that position in society has allowed you opportunity to mock lead a 'fabled' unit, correct? I mean, do you sincerely believe these things respect you? After all, what has the fabulous Fajra Merav accomplished in her life? What hardships has she known? [Glancing her up, then down he shook his head slowly. While his memory did still serve him quite well, and her curves which he recalled quite fondly, had only swelled to even greater perfection in the years that had passed. She did forget her place, it seemed.] I mean, look at you. You're sick, a filthy wreck. You should be ashamed and embarrassed. You'll be joining myself and the Oynx Fist this evening, I highly suggest you clean up before the briefing.
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General_Adenn | Date: Sunday, 30 Jan 2011, 3:46 PM | Message # 4 |
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| Commander Merav says: "Your words and actions have more weight here, but here's a little something for your ear hole. Back home? They mean nothing. You will always be beneath me, and the fabulous Fajra Merav doesn't have to do anything to make it so. I was born. Apparently to a more noble family." Like a broken record, her departing words played over and over in her head. She couldn't remember how long she'd been > running for. It was like she was out of her head, even sober she'd often slipped out. It wasn't until a pair of hands seized her that she realized what was going on. Fajra and a small contingent of men had come upon a small village. This was what she'd been waiting for. A chance to get in a little action. But she couldn't help but feel...well she wasn't sure what she felt. Whatever it was, it > made her skin crawl. In silence, they entered the village from different points of entry. As Fajra and her group passed by the first sign of death, she realized a little too late that there was nothing exciting about this. Adenn says: Fire! [Aethyr shouted, a row of his deadly Onyx Fist soldiers responding in complete unison released single charges from their rifles. Blasting the grotesque wounds of certain death in to the brave, and loyal Imperial citizens that had unfortunately been called upon to sacrifice for the greater good of the Empire they so adored. The ruse had already been set, and the mission sprung. Aethyr and > his men, faces hidden and bearing the unmistakable symbol of the Monnok upon the shoulder of the insurgent rags that draped their bodies had struck this village hours ago. Burning buildings, slaughtering men, women, and children. They executed and maimed all they came by without worry, without remoarse. But the job was not done, not yet. Turning on his heel from the shooting line Aethyr's green > eyes lofted towards the villages centre time piece. And like proud father, smiled with great pride when he heard the rupture of automatic blaster fire several rows down from his location.] Right on time. [He breathed, turning towards his second-in-command.] I want the girl left alive, understood? [He said strictly.] Of course, sir. [The faceless man replied almost mechanically.] Lets, move! Commander Merav says: Her movements, despite her boots, were quiet and cautious. There were four others with her, but she hardly noticed them. She could barely draw her eyes away from the bodies that scattered the streets. "...children..." she whispered, but it sounded more like a question. It was all she managed to say before she heard it. Blaster fire. It wasn't too far away, and the location would mean that some > of her men were involved. It didn't take her long to realize that they were out numbered. She could tell the difference just by the sounds of their weapons. Her first instinct was to help them, and against all rationality she broke out into a run... ---- Her breathing was heavy, and the shaking in her hands was so intense she could barely hold the carbine that weighted her arms down. Explosions echoed over the flickering crack of deathly flames that hungerily consumed the house to her right as her unsteady feet shuffled slowly across the debri laden ground. Although she knew they were greatly outnumbered, she could still hear the howls of gunfire strafe outwards from destinations she could not quite pinpoint. "Come on, we need to get to the centre of town!" She huffed, turning her head over her shoulder she froze dead in her tracks. It was only at this point that she now realized she was alone out here. But this fact would not remain true for long. She didn't know where the first blow came from, she didn't even know when the first enemy soldier had approached her. For all the great, and fabulous things Fajra Merav was, versed soldier was not one. She didn't know what to do, she didn't know what to look for, what to listen to. "You going to surrender, Imperial dog?!" An unfamiliar voice asked harshly, booting her carbine out of reach with a swift kick. "What ever do you mean?" She instinctively replied, trying to mask any type of fear that shook through her voice as she carefully rose back to her feet. Eyeing over the five men that stood around her in the ghoulish glow of healthy flames. She knew there was no escape from this, and she couldn't surrender. Slowly she began to edge backwards, this was it. She knew she had to fight, she was as ready as she was going to be. Her amber eyes carefully sized each man up as they watched her. One let out a deep throaty chuckle, another nodded. Then the second strike violently fell upon left shoulder blade with the heavy butt of a rifle, stumbling her down to her knees. The men pounced like rabid dogs, eight of them in total now. Hands grabbed all across her body, yanking and twistng her back and forth as she valiantly struggled against her attackers. Her command jacket was torn viciously from her frame, her arms snaked in and out of the hands of the disguised Onyx Fist. She pushed one man away with her legs, tumbling him over backwards as she continued to struggle. "Noo!!" She inadvertantly yelped, before biting the forearm of another. "Ahh!!" the man growled, yanking his arm free. Quickly he took her by hair, and with fist clenched he struck Fajra hatefully across the face once, then twice. . . and again. Blood began to freely flow down her throat, her lips parted, those once brilliantly white teeth now red as the liquid spilt down the corner of her lips. Though dazed from the repeated blows to her head, she was frighteningly aware of everything that was happening to her. The taste of blood, the feeling of it's heat as it flowed over her face from a gash that yet another spiteful strike had opened. The fight in her was hastily vanishing. Her undershirt finally could not hold on any longer, the threads ripped and the fabric tore off from her, her bra soon followed. Uncaringly pulled off from her, only to be replaced by the soiled hands of one of her unknown assailants. Reality began to fade around her. She listened only to the random explosions that broke the tormenting taunts of these eight monsters. Completely bare, Fajra's small wrists and ankles were bound tight with chord. She struggled still, but hope was lost as the men parted her legs wide, and staked her tied limbs in to the world below her. They assaulted her almost to her death, all night long they took turns. One after the other, no pity. No remorse. The ordeal seemed to last an eternity. ---- Fajra Merav's vision was heavily blurred, her breathing shallow. She couldn't make out who was standing over her in the early morning light. Or what he was saying. "You're going to be alright." a young Jon Davir assured her as he carefully removed a blanket from his pack and draped it over Fajra's beaten and abused body. Gently he and his squad mate began cutting the ropes that still bound the broken Commander. "Gortoz, we need an immediate medevac now." He tried to say calmly as he took Fajra's hand.
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Fajra_Merav | Date: Sunday, 06 Feb 2011, 1:34 PM | Message # 5 |
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| "You’ve been kissed by shadows. You’ve crossed into Death, into the other side, and returned. Do you think something like that doesn’t leave a mark on the soul? You have a greater sense of life and the world. You should have stayed dead, you were actually in its embrace, and some part of you will always remember that, always fight to cling to life and experience all it has. That’s why you’re so reckless in the things you do. You don’t hold back your feelings, your passion, your anger. It makes you remarkable. It makes you dangerous." - I wanted to die, because surely I couldn’t keep going on after this. Horror and shock consumed me, so much that I thought my soul would shrivel. I wanted to shriek my pain to the universe. I wanted to cry until I melted. I wanted to sink down beside those who had died and die with them. My world had slowed down, and through my hate-filled haze, I slipped out of my body. In this memory, I had been passing through Estalle city, when I had been approached by a man. He didn’t give his name, nor could I recall his features, for he kept them obscured by the hood of his cloak(it figured). He seemed to have known me, and not just known of me by way of name or title. It was known fact that I overdosed. Once it was out, the news spread like wildfire. What they didn’t know? Apparently my heart stopped beating. Apart from myself and my father, it was only known by those who brought me back. And because they were loyal to House Melantha, backed by the weight of my fathers position and wealth, word of it would never fall from their lips. So yeah I was a little surprised when this man approached me. He said my aura was surrounded by black shadows, and that I had a connection to the dead. I simply dismissed him as drunk. It wasn’t until my life was hanging by a thread that I remembered. I became oblivious to everything: to the world around, to time itself. Minutes could have passed. Hours could have passed. I didn’t know. I existed in an altered state, one that barely kept the terror and grief at bay. Footsteps and voices eventually sounded. I couldn’t really make anyone out. I didn’t need to. They were threats. "Get away from me," I warned, not recognizing my own voice. They kept coming. "Stay back!" I yelled. They stopped, except for one. His voice was soft as he assured me I was going to be alright. Hesitantly, I let myself become aware of my surroundings. I let my eyes focus on the features of the man standing there. Jon Davir. He took my broken body and guided me out of there. My mind still refused to process what had happened. I couldn’t do much more than answer simple questions from those around me. I eventually ended up on a shuttle. Someone sat beside me and adjusted the canvas blanket. I didn’t notice until then how badly I was shivering. I tugged at the edges of the blanket. "I’m cold," I said. "How am I so cold?" "You’re in shock," Ne’tra answered. I turned and looked at him. Something about seeing him unleashed my memories. "They’re really gone?" Before I knew it, I was crying. The tears I’d held back poured down my face. The fear and guilt I’d refused to let myself feel finally burst free. I could barely breathe. "…they’re dead because of me…"
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